So. The last little bit I have been feeling a little gross on the inside. For the last little bit lots of stupid things have been happening and I just keep thinking, "Really? I swear I have redeeming qualities somewhere inside me. Right? Right! I totally do! Somewhere. Probably." Tonight is one of those nights. Just a junky day where I just keep thinking, "Really?" But guess what world! I totally have good things about me! I am worth good things even when it doesn't feel like it!
Most of my new coworkers are pretty openly unfriendly towards me no matter how hard I try to talk to them. But guess what?! The Mexican cooks in the back think I'm super funny even though we can't actually communicate with words.
My classmates wouldn't remember my name if I wore a shirt with it on it. But I have gone out of my way to talk to new people in my classes every week even though it is super hard for me. Persistence and resiliency! I have those! I suck at social-dom but I still try and that's really what matters.
I haven't been on a date with anyone with but my ex in like 9 months. But ya know what? I am a nice person. I have lots of things to offer and if guys don't care for that, then fine. I get to keep all my awesomeness to myself. I like myself. I also kind of hate dating but I know I'm supposed to do it so I'm not actually super mad about this one.
I tore my last pair of good fitting jeans on Saturday. Ok that one is pretty lame but my mommy gave me money to go clothes shopping a little while ago for my Christmas present from her so I can afford to get some new ones. They were also ripped in an epic game of broomball so they were just a casualty to the awesomeness of the game. Curse my overly competitive nature! I also body-slammed my bishop during this game. Several times. Oops.
No matter how many hours I study, I still get bad scores on test. I'm a bad tester but I really do learn a lot so I still am fine with that. Frustrated. But hey, I'm doing all I can.
I feel like I've gotten super fat this semester. I eat pretty junky though so I can't really be mad about that one. I have been trying to eat healthier and I work out lots so it will get better. Eventually.
I don't have to nickles to rub together. Literally. I hate nickles so I get rid of them as soon as possible. Anyway. I work like a bajillion hours a week and I still have to budget like crazy. But I have 2 jobs and one of them I make bank at. The second one isn't guaranteed lots of money, but generally I do pretty well. I am just always worried about money and I have plenty of savings.
See world?! To quote the wise words of some singer person, "You get knocked down, but I get up again, so you're never gonna keep me down". I have redeeming qualities! I am a nice person with lots of other things that are good about me! Stop trying to make me feel bad about myself world because I'm super awesome. Hear that world?!
I AM SUPER AWESOME
